Our First Glimpse

(yes the video is upside down oops)

Today was an emotion jam packed day, and I was so happy Tom was able to take off work to witness it all.  First we stopped by the bank and signed our life over to the mortgage haha.  But really it was a big relief to get that done, it was about 80 pages of signatures.  Next we went to our most exciting appointment yet.   At 11 weeks, we were scheduled to just hear the heartbeat, which was weighing on my mind so much since day one.  I was very aware all along how real the threat of miscarriage is and I am always one to prepare for the worst.  So up until now, even though I felt so many symptoms...it still didn't feel real.   

So we got there and explained to the nurse that we haven't gotten any ultrasounds and the Army won't cover anything besides the 20 week one unless it is medically necessary.  We also explained that Tom is likely to be away at training for that 20 week one.  She was really nice, and tried the doppler on my belly to listen, but explained "at this point it is like finding a needle in a haystack."  Feeling very discouraged that my worst fears were about to happen, she told us not to worry and sent us straight to get an ultrasound.

We waited about 10 minutes, and then in an instant life was complete again and Tom and I both got to get the first glimpse inside where our baby was safe and healthy.   I always cry during other people's emotional moments, but for some reason...when Tom proposed, our wedding day, and now seeing our baby for the first time... all I could do was laugh!  I shed a few tears quietly, but mostly I was so relieved and happy. 

I can't believe next week marks my 2nd Trimester!  Whew, this has been a crazy ride so far.  More to come on recounting the awful weeks of sickness, my go to pregnancy grocery list, and trying to find ways to stay active while pregnant.

For now I am just back on the cloud 9 I was on the day we got the big fat positive on our test!

~the damsel